There Will Always Be Tomorrow
I have never called myself as a "widow". I prefer to be called a single mother.
I have never planned to be a single parent, but the universe has given me a chance to be free, to be my own self again. To be healed.
I enjoy my new journey as a single mother. It wasn't an easy choice to make. No matter how hard it was when I found a piece of evidence falling out of my ex husband's bag, I was fought very hard to make things better, at least it was my plan at that time. Of course it didn't work that way. Not a chance. I was fooling myself.
Then the awakening came. A friend, a healer talked to me. Not a psychic or anything, but she used to talked to people with broken wings. She told me that I have been unjust to my daughter, teaching her that it is normal for a husband to abandoned his family, to have a girlfriend and a wife at the same time and to enjoy his life being unemployed while his wife is working her fat ass off to put bread and butter on the table. Her words slapped me hard.
No, it's not OK. I have to live a healthy life to raise my child.
So I flew to Bali, I went to the beach before Bali wakes up and talk to the Universe. I thank the Universe for giving me a chance to be a wife, a mother. But I cannot stand the way he treated me anymore and I have given up. I surrender my heart to the waves. And the waves took him away to their embrace. Not long after that, he left us without any news. Not even a single goodbye.
This experience teach me to appreciate life. To be grateful that I am alive and well.
Sometimes people said they are sorry to hear my story, but I am not.
I am the captain of ship. I choose my own path and I will make the best of any given moment.
Does it hard to be a single mother? Yes it does. Sometimes I went home after a long day of work and found myself in an empty room. All I can do is grab a pillow and hug it as hard as I can. And I let my tears falling down to my face. Yes I do cry from time to time.
Crying is good for the soul, it cleans your heart and purify your soul.
So when time gets so hard, remember that no matter what you do, as long as you still breath, there will always be tomorrow.
Everything is going to be alright.
I have never planned to be a single parent, but the universe has given me a chance to be free, to be my own self again. To be healed.
I enjoy my new journey as a single mother. It wasn't an easy choice to make. No matter how hard it was when I found a piece of evidence falling out of my ex husband's bag, I was fought very hard to make things better, at least it was my plan at that time. Of course it didn't work that way. Not a chance. I was fooling myself.
Then the awakening came. A friend, a healer talked to me. Not a psychic or anything, but she used to talked to people with broken wings. She told me that I have been unjust to my daughter, teaching her that it is normal for a husband to abandoned his family, to have a girlfriend and a wife at the same time and to enjoy his life being unemployed while his wife is working her fat ass off to put bread and butter on the table. Her words slapped me hard.
No, it's not OK. I have to live a healthy life to raise my child.
So I flew to Bali, I went to the beach before Bali wakes up and talk to the Universe. I thank the Universe for giving me a chance to be a wife, a mother. But I cannot stand the way he treated me anymore and I have given up. I surrender my heart to the waves. And the waves took him away to their embrace. Not long after that, he left us without any news. Not even a single goodbye.
This experience teach me to appreciate life. To be grateful that I am alive and well.
Sometimes people said they are sorry to hear my story, but I am not.
I am the captain of ship. I choose my own path and I will make the best of any given moment.
Does it hard to be a single mother? Yes it does. Sometimes I went home after a long day of work and found myself in an empty room. All I can do is grab a pillow and hug it as hard as I can. And I let my tears falling down to my face. Yes I do cry from time to time.
Crying is good for the soul, it cleans your heart and purify your soul.
So when time gets so hard, remember that no matter what you do, as long as you still breath, there will always be tomorrow.
Everything is going to be alright.
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